So some of you may have been wondering where I have been and why I haven't been posting and to be honest, I have absolutely no idea where to start. The past month and a half has been fairly difficult for me in regard to my mental health and how I've been feeling. From spending every single day and spare minute putting my head down and focusing on my work for university; I didn't give myself any time to do anything for myself apart from anything education based. Due to this, my mental health drastically went down hill and my motivation for everything completely disappeared. I had no motivation; I had nothing and I wanted to spend every minute of every day in bed, but I knew I couldn't.

I knew the first thing I had to do was step back from my blog and in the end step back from social media too. I've been quite distant from twitter and even Instagram at the moment and it's been nice not being too involved. It's great to have a break. My next step was to step back from my uni work; once I finished two modules I took around 2-3 weeks off from doing any uni work whatsoever. I feel like I'm failing myself but in fact I'm taking care of myself. 

I decided I needed to take some time away from everything and do the things I love and enjoy; although my depression and mental health going down hill meant I was drastically spending money like there was no tomorrow because it made me feel better; it did make me feel better when it came to my frame of mind; doing the things I enjoy. I've also spent the past two weeks reading more books; in these couple of weeks I have read 5 or 6 books and it's been wonderful, I've missed just sitting there with my nose in a book ignoring anything which pops up on my phone.

Yesterday I received two emails saying my presentation results were now available and I couldn't wait to find out what I had achieved. A couple of minutes later and I received two emails back with a document stating what my feedback and result was; this was either going to break me or make me.. You know the saying. For the second and third time ever, I received a first in my work; insane. I honestly couldn't believe it. What has been a frown and sad face for a few weeks now, turned into the biggest grin ever. I received the highest mark I've ever got, just 3 months into my third year and I couldn't be more proud and pleased with the hard work I put in to get there.

Receiving these results made me realise that whatever I set as a goal for myself, I will always achieve. My goal was to score above 70% in this year and so far I'm on track. It's really put me back into the zone of high motivation to get things done which brings me on to a dissertation and blogmas too. To put my mind frame back in the right place, I pretty much planned my life out in my diary; making Monday my blog post day, to write up as many as possible; with Wednesday being my dissertation day; to get a large chunk done by the 13th of December.

Sometimes, all you need is to take a break, step back and do what you need to do to get back up to the top again; for me, this process is now complete and you'll be seeing more of me!

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Kimberley Jessica

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The past month or so I have had a sudden urge to read self help/motivational books; I think this is because my mental health has been drifting off a little bit for just over a month now and I wanted to try something a little bit different which I haven't ventured into yet. So I decided to start with the "Who says you can't? you do" book as I had seen this floating around my Instagram for the past year and I absolutely loved how it included a quote nearly on every page. I'm a lover of quotes and anything with a quote needs to be in my hands, and I mean anything.

This is a book I cannot take back to a charity shop or even give to someone; I loved it that much. It's a book which I want to be able to refer back to whenever I need a little bit of extra support. This book reminds you of the mental frame you need to have and should have to be able to have that little sense of self control. The idea of knowing that your life is yours and no one else's. Having the guts to stand up for yourself, say something and always speak your mind.

This book helped to encourage a positive outlook on life and a positive outlook on everything I do. It made me realise that it's completely and utterly okay to get rid of people in my life if they're a little bit toxic and provide negativity to my space around me.

But at the same time, this book gave me a visual of how my thought processes should work and how I can make them work; using my own time and patience. It's a book for someone who struggles to find the motivation to do something, or even for someone who struggles to believe in themselves. 

There is absolutely nothing I could say bad about this book; it was an incredible read and I would read it over and over again if I really had to. It's a book which will stay on my shelf for emergencies or even for someone close to me who may need a little bit of help. 

Out of 5, I'd say this book is way past 5. It's incredible, it opens up your eyes to the world in a much more positive way. 

I would recommend this book to anyone; whether you need a motivational boost, a little bit of self help or even if you just want to read an incredible book; this one is for you.

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I will always be one of those people who believes in everything happens for a reason; it's part of me and I don't think that will ever change. If someone comes into my life and leaves again, they came for a reason and they left for a reason; usually to show me right from wrong.

I think like this when it comes to mental health too, sometimes we have our down days so we can cherish the good days even more. It helps us to create a positive mental frame for each day as they come. As some of you may know I have been having pretty bad days for a good few weeks now; I haven't felt myself for a while. But I don't think it's because my mental health is trying to piss me off, I think it's happening for a reason and it's to bring a positive outlook afterwards, at least I hope so.

Friendship is an area of life I generally struggle with; I hate losing people and I struggle if I do. But after the past couple of months I've learnt that people are there for a reason whether they stay or not. If they stay, absolutely brilliant; they're a friend for life. But if they go then there's always going to be a reason why they do. It's an area I will always struggle with but as I grow, I'm slowly coming to terms with it a little bit more.

If you ever have down and blue days like myself, just always remember that there's a reason because of it. Usually shit happens so that we can face barriers and take on challenges to learn and grow. Right now, my challenge is to battle my mental health without taking myself down in the process. It's finding new strategies to deal with my mental health and get through it. We can all do this, it just takes a little bit of positivity and strength to succeed.

I hope you all have a lovely day.

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Kimberley Jessica

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Something I have been speaking about recently on my twitter is how I've been feeling and what's been going on in my life. I've been trying to figure out the reasons why I feel like not doing anything all of the time. I'm one of those people who wakes up earlier than usual to get so many things done during the day. I used to spend days on end writing up blog post after blog post so I had a good few weeks of posts scheduled so I didn't have to worry. However, this year I have really struggled to do this; blog posts have been written the night before, on the day or even a couple of nights before. I haven't scheduled blog posts weeks in advance since last Christmas.

The things I usually love doing; walking my dogs, baking, going out for long walks, going shopping and even going to work; I haven't wanted to do, or I've dreaded doing. I'm feeling completely and utterly unmotivated and all I want to do is spend my days in my bedroom not really doing much. 

I've constantly been looking for a reason why I've felt like this. I began to think it was something to do with feeling constantly tired and then I was trying to figure out why I'm always tired (I still have absolutely no idea either), and then I thought it was something to do with my depression and I am just going through a rough stage at the moment. Talking to people who I work with or even my friends, I've come to realise that maybe it's something to do with University. Since January all I have done is spend all of my spare time doing uni work (apart from the summer when I was working full time).

If I have a day off work, or a weekend off when I'm not seeing my boyfriend, I'm sat in my bedroom glued to my laptop doing uni work and that is simply all I do. Have a worked so hard on my uni work that I have drained absolutely everything out of me? I no longer want to do anything, I'm always feeling unhappy and drained.

People have suggested taking some time out from my uni work and doing things which I love and enjoy; getting out and about and having fun. This is something I'm going to do over the next week or so to see if this is my unsolved mystery, but who knows.

Posts may come back to normal within a week, however I'm not going to promise as I have no idea how things are going to turn out. But of course I will keep people updated on my twitter so make sure you're following me.

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Kimberley Jessica

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You may have noticed I haven't posted this week and god, there's so many reasons for it. Sometimes you need to take some time out and spend some time doing other things. It isn't because I wanted to, but it's more because I needed to. 

This week I had an emotional and a fairly rough week with a funeral to attend on Thursday. I always feel a funeral is something you need to be mentally prepared for and this time, it was a funeral in a church which is something I haven't experienced before. It was heart breaking, and even more so seeing my boyfriend cry; it truly broke me.

Due to this, I spent a couple of days away from my blog and spending time with my boyfriend and giving him my time that he desperately needed to feel comfortable and at ease. My blog isn't my job so this was something that I was able to do, and even if it was my job; I still would have given him the time he needed.

This week I have also been using the majority of my time to write essays and presentations for University, so I can spend more of my time focusing on my dissertation (which my university is continuously messing up). I try to keep everyone updated on my twitter or my Instagram accounts and I plan on sharing more on my study gram as my third year continues.

As it's coming towards the middle of November, I am also focusing more of my time on my schedule for December and preparing for each post for Blogmas. Although the past few months haven't been perfect when it comes to posting daily, I hope to be able to do so in December (fingers crossed).

I want to take this moment to thank everyone for being so patient with me and for understanding personal circumstances due to no blog posts going live. This is week coming is a new week and I plan to start again.

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Kimberley Jessica

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As I live my life, so many different things happen; good and bad and the majority of what happens in my life I tend to share on my blog. Of course there are certain aspects which I don't share; the personal bits and bobs which really no one needs to know about. But when it comes to situations such as being a student and the ins and outs of that; I think it's an experience which could help many people. I'm sure these posts can be rather boring for people who are no longer students but I think these "life lessons" I guess we can call them, could help anyone in any different situation.

A comment which has risen since I've been school is "you think you're better than everyone else". And I know, it's the most stupid comment in the world and when people first started saying it, I took it to heart as like I did with everything else and it was a comment which I felt down about the majority of the time. Thinking about why people were saying this comment back in school was to do with the fact that I used to sit there in class, do my work, do my homework and I never had a detention. But why would that make people assume that I think I'm better than everyone else? I'm simply doing what I'm there to do? Learning, working and doing my bloody homework. I never wanted to stay later after school, or spend half an hour of my lunch break in detention; I had things I wanted to do.

This comment carried on into college where I would also go into college, do my work and leave by 11:30 most mornings because I wanted to get home, do something I'd rather be doing, or even helping my mum who's disabled. How is this thinking I'm better than everyone else? 

Sadly, even at University studying with people in their 20s-40s, I'm still coming across this comment. "she thinks she's better than everyone else", even when it's still the same situation. I'm there to learn, I'm there to do my uni work so I can pass, and then get a profession at the end of it. I do my work early on, so I can spend my Christmas blogging, or spending time with my mum; or spending my time reading, watching tv (which I never do); and generally, doing things I love to do because when I'm studying, I do not have the time to do anything. 

I have been to college and university, for myself, to gain more knowledge, to get a qualification and to get my dream job at the end of it. I don't think that's thinking that I'm better than everyone else, it's simply doing what I dream of doing, and doing it at the speed that I work at, not what everyone else works at. 

If it was easy for people to understand that they need to focus on what they're doing and not what everyone else is doing, I wouldn't have had this problem for ten years.  Is it that difficult to understand this concept? 

I've come to learn not to give a crap about this comment and the amount of times it comes up, because I'm doing everything I do for me, not for anyone else. And that's something everyone should do. You get out of life what you put into it.

Have you ever been told that you think you're better than everyone else? How did you take that comment?

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Kimberley Jessica

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I planned on sharing this post with you guys a few weeks ago, but with so much going on with University I haven't had the chance too! So apologies if you want to get your hands on these products and you can no longer get them online. Some stores may still stock them, or even Body Shop representatives so I highly recommend trying to get your hands on them if you still can.

I have to say I absolutely love The Body Shop when they bring out limited edition scents in a wide range of products. I feel like the limited edition stock is always my favourite compared to the standard stock they sell all year round. Something about them selling products for a limited time for a special occasion makes the product so much nicer. You may completely understand what I mean, but you might not. Who knows.

 I had the chance to try out the Vanilla pumpkin body butter, and christ I wish they brought this out as a scent all year round; I bloody love it. I also wish I got my hands on the hand cream, but completely forgot about purchasing it before it went off the website, oops! 

I personally prefer body butters to body lotions because they leave my skin feeling hydrated and moisturised for so much longer. I found when using a body lotion, my skin dries within a couple of hours during the winter period. This may have something to do with the thickness of a body butter compared to a body lotion.

The vanilla pumpkin range reminds so much of toffee popcorn. I remember putting this on my skin, going downstairs and my brother asked why it stunk like toffee in my kitchen. No one had eaten any or sprayed anything. I then smelt my legs, got my mum to smell my legs and figured out it was me who stunk like toffee popcorn. It's a very strong but sweet scent, a scent that I LOVE.

This product is thick, creamy and absolutely gorgeous; everything about it I love and if I could, I'd repurchase this product every time I run out but sadly I can't. It's definitely one of those products which you wish was sold in a larger pot so you have an endless supply.

Did you manage to get your hands on The Body Shop's Vanilla Pumpkin range?

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Kimberley Jessica

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I am absolutely loving listening to music at the moment; all day, every day if I possibly can. My favourite thing to do is listen to music while I'm driving to somewhere, mainly University because I tend to get stuck in traffic! Music has it's own way of making you feel a certain way, you can listen to one song and end up in tears, but you can listen to another and you want to dance. My playlists for each month tend to be different every single month; sometimes I want to listen to hits from the 00s, whereas I also love the current hits.

This month is a little bit of everything, songs from the 90s, songs from the 00s and even songs from now; I'm just loving them all.

What's your current favourite song?

October has been and gone which only means one thing; it's time to share what I have been absolutely loving throughout the past month. The past month has flown by so quickly, I have completely forgotten what I've used this month and been enjoying. I'm sure there are so many things I have loved and used a lot in the past month but for now, I only have five things for you guys; I'm sure there will be more this month!

The Body Shop Five Extension Mascara is an insane product which ever single person needs to get their hands on. I absolutely love it; it's incredible. Out of every makeup product out their, mascara is the one product I love and have to wear on a daily basis; there's no other product out there which compares to be honest. I was very wary about trying out a fibre mascara; worried about getting the fibres in eye and then causing an issue. However you don't have this issue with the fibres, they do not go anywhere apart from your lashes. By applying the fibres to your eyelashes after applying a first coat of mascara, the fibres stick to the mascara which provide the lengthening when you then apply the second coat. I have absolutely no idea how it does it, but it lengthens them till they look false. It's a product worth trying.

Natura Siberica is a product which I have only just come across however it's a product which has made such a difference to my skincare routine. I have always wanted to try an eye cream but never found one with high recommendations. However after coming across Naturally Better You, it was a product which stood out to me. I have loved using this eye cream because it isn't scented. I've come across a fair few skin products which stink and I cannot stand having a strong smell on my face. The Nature Siberica eye cream leaves my under eye area feeling silky soft; creating a perfect base for my concealer.

 I have completely fallen in love with Friction Free Shaving. Not only because they're new Rose razor is absolutely beautiful but because they leave my legs feeling so soft and silky and completely hair free. I struggle when it comes to my legs; my leg hair grows back on a daily basis and it drives me absolutely insane. I used to use wilkinsons razors however I found I wasn't having a clean, soft shave. But since I have been using the razor and their shaving cream, I have absolutely loved shaving my legs, it isn't a chore anymore. I have a cheeky discount code at the end of this post if you'd like to buy your own razor.

Last but not least I have been using the Crabtree and Evelyn Pomegranate and Argan Oil Hand Therapy on a daily basis. I really struggle when it comes to hand cream due to having severe eczema on my hands; some hand creams make it worse, whereas some make it better. I have loved this hand cream for these current cold months while the heating is on! It's a thick, creamy consistency with the most beautiful scent. I haven't had any issues with my Eczema stinging or burning or even appearing worse.
Last but not least is a new Primark Nail Varnish in Holographic. It's £1.50 and absolutely beautiful; perfect for anyone who loves purple or loves a little bit of sparkle and shimmer on their nails. I prefer not to paint my nails purple; it isn't one of my favourite colours however I couldn't help but fall in love with this one. It dries quickly and doesn't chip if you apply a top coat!

What have you loved throughout October?

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Kimberley Jessica

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Can we just mention the fact it's December in a month? How? Why is this year going so quickly? So this month isn't going to be filled with much fun and surprises; it's a standard month at the end of the year where I have to spend the majority of my time doing University work and being absolutely freezing. It's a pretty standard Autumn/Winter month for a student. Although the best part about November is it's not wrong to be listening to Christmas music and for sure I will be doing that while I'm sat cosy in my dressing gown doing my dissertation.

November is quite a difficult month for me to begin with as it's the anniversary of my Bestfriend's death tomorrow. Not exactly the way I like to start a new month however it does mean I'm an emotional wreck as we start the festive period. 

Something I am looking into at the moment is self care. Spending more time on yourself, learning to care for yourself more and having a more positive mind and body; it's an issue I'm currently struggling with which is one of the reasons why I have been quite withdrawn from social media at the moment. 

November is a month for productivity and getting things done; the month when I create loads of little goals to complete each day, each week and throughout the whole month; instead of the larger goals which I make during September, January and usually the start of Spring too.

So while I'm going to be productive with University, and hopefully my blog too. My main goal is to spend more time on myself, finding myself and generally being myself. Doing more of the things I love and it's an area I want to bring into my blog to potentially help others too.

Do you have a goal this month?

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Kimberley Jessica

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